I don't have much to say about the game other than that the idea of allowing people to create things is amazing, however it does need people to... create things! and I don't know how that is going to happen, but if the tools are vast and the possibilities also are, a lot could be made and that is something that generally makes games very successful!
But about the depression part, I actually understand that, and a lot of people do, even people vastly different from you! but the issue is that often people don't get to experience such feelings, generally for different reasons, I mean depression is really wide and complicated, it has been extremely long since I've felt like that FOR REAL, as in like actually not wanting to live and do anything, the key for me is dopamine, generally what causes me to go like that is when things go terribly wrong, most my expectations and plans, like TERRIBLY wrong, and then I feel like that, but I try to remember the goal or whatever and think about it constantly and constantly and constantly which sort of builds the natural dopamine again right? so I want the goal, my mind is doing the weird mental masturbation related to that, and then motivation appears! but then you do need to have some sort of goal right? and time generally helps since you often forget bad things.
But yeah I get the weird pleasure out of being in such situation, it is funny because it oddly feels nostalgic and... good for me??? while I am pretty sure it was not good when I felt it to a pretty high degree a long time ago, anyway, don't give up!
What I try to remember is that things don't really matter, life is basically just null and void and there is not much to it, everybody will die and everything will be forgotten anyway! this does have other implications which I will not get into, but both doing something and doing nothing sort of have the same like value under such thinking, so it is just a matter of time until I decide to act in some way or another, and after a while it gets... boring?
But about the depression part, I actually understand that, and a lot of people do, even people vastly different from you! but the issue is that often people don't get to experience such feelings, generally for different reasons, I mean depression is really wide and complicated, it has been extremely long since I've felt like that FOR REAL, as in like actually not wanting to live and do anything, the key for me is dopamine, generally what causes me to go like that is when things go terribly wrong, most my expectations and plans, like TERRIBLY wrong, and then I feel like that, but I try to remember the goal or whatever and think about it constantly and constantly and constantly which sort of builds the natural dopamine again right? so I want the goal, my mind is doing the weird mental masturbation related to that, and then motivation appears! but then you do need to have some sort of goal right? and time generally helps since you often forget bad things.
But yeah I get the weird pleasure out of being in such situation, it is funny because it oddly feels nostalgic and... good for me??? while I am pretty sure it was not good when I felt it to a pretty high degree a long time ago, anyway, don't give up!
What I try to remember is that things don't really matter, life is basically just null and void and there is not much to it, everybody will die and everything will be forgotten anyway! this does have other implications which I will not get into, but both doing something and doing nothing sort of have the same like value under such thinking, so it is just a matter of time until I decide to act in some way or another, and after a while it gets... boring?