My end of the year just leading up to Christmas and since then has also been very miserable so far. Both as a combination of coming down from some fairly good times and feeling stuck in normalcy again, but also just a constant barrage of sickness and pain. It hasn't been a fun way to move into 2023, but oh well.
Compared to my family I'd hardly say I'm getting anywhere in life in the typical sense that people expect either, but I find it difficult to care about because most of the things people expect of me are things I simply have never had interest in.
It is surely a grim way to look at things, but for me even the high points of life never seem so great to me that they would outweigh all the low points that would come from heading down a normal road, especially as somebody who struggles with the things I do in the way I do. So in the event that I was forced down that normal road, I'd probably prefer to just not exist instead.
Hardly much of a pick-me-up to read, I bet, but I guess I wrote this just to share and relate with some of what you've said.
Compared to my family I'd hardly say I'm getting anywhere in life in the typical sense that people expect either, but I find it difficult to care about because most of the things people expect of me are things I simply have never had interest in.
It is surely a grim way to look at things, but for me even the high points of life never seem so great to me that they would outweigh all the low points that would come from heading down a normal road, especially as somebody who struggles with the things I do in the way I do. So in the event that I was forced down that normal road, I'd probably prefer to just not exist instead.
Hardly much of a pick-me-up to read, I bet, but I guess I wrote this just to share and relate with some of what you've said.