I wasn't sure what to expect or what I even wanted; that was a big part of what I talked about with this person. Much of my frustration comes from this lack of clarity regarding a path forward, because it's not simple. Do I learn how to better cope with the promotion side of games dev, and tackle the related trauma? Or do I revise my life entirely and go and do some 'normal' job, if I even can? There are pros and cons of both.
I approached my GP and said I needed mental health help, and he had me see this person, perhaps because I'd mentioned to him that I wasn't working a traditional job and he - being in a hard-to-achieve line of work himself - probably saw that as something that absolutely needed to be fixed right away. Or maybe they had no more suitable options available, I don't know. This is a small surgery in a little seaside town, after all, not some big city hospital.
Re cooking, yes, I don't have any interest in cooking, that's the point. Trying to find something basic has been the challenge which has always resulted in frustration. Like if --someone wanted to learn music composition and knew nothing, but all the tutorials for 'beginners' assumed I had the right software, instrument, and knew what a bIV7 chord was. I've never been able to find anything that assumes zero understanding and experience because they're always written by people with a lot of both who just take many things for granted and make assumptions.
I suppose drawing tutorials were like that, actually, but I pushed through because that's something I actually wanted to be able to do. I really can't stress enough how little I'd want to cook, though, and I don't get why people seem to not get it.
Actually, I suppose it's exactly the same as the complete aversion I have towards building my own PC... which people who do know how do that and enjoy it never seem to get either. Just like how I don't get how people are resistant to learning about personality psychology, I suppose, and I just get frustrated that they don't see it as interesting and useful as it clearly seems to be to me.
I approached my GP and said I needed mental health help, and he had me see this person, perhaps because I'd mentioned to him that I wasn't working a traditional job and he - being in a hard-to-achieve line of work himself - probably saw that as something that absolutely needed to be fixed right away. Or maybe they had no more suitable options available, I don't know. This is a small surgery in a little seaside town, after all, not some big city hospital.
Re cooking, yes, I don't have any interest in cooking, that's the point. Trying to find something basic has been the challenge which has always resulted in frustration. Like if --someone wanted to learn music composition and knew nothing, but all the tutorials for 'beginners' assumed I had the right software, instrument, and knew what a bIV7 chord was. I've never been able to find anything that assumes zero understanding and experience because they're always written by people with a lot of both who just take many things for granted and make assumptions.
I suppose drawing tutorials were like that, actually, but I pushed through because that's something I actually wanted to be able to do. I really can't stress enough how little I'd want to cook, though, and I don't get why people seem to not get it.
Actually, I suppose it's exactly the same as the complete aversion I have towards building my own PC... which people who do know how do that and enjoy it never seem to get either. Just like how I don't get how people are resistant to learning about personality psychology, I suppose, and I just get frustrated that they don't see it as interesting and useful as it clearly seems to be to me.