Hi, my name is Martín, I am a big fan of your game Mardek, which I believe is quite a masterpiece. First time i played that game was some... Ten years ago? Back on the old Kongregate site. Some few days ago I bought the Steam version and tried to visit the Fig Hunters website, stumbling into your blog.
Although it's quite sad yo find out about your suffering, I think that writing it down might be actually great for you. And, besides, I believe you are really making a lot of progress; maybe more than you can actually realize about.
I'm from Argentina, quite the other side of the world; and casually happen to be a mental health worker. I agree with what tharse says: living in this world and abyding to the social standards is way harder than what is commonly believed. Our culture, the media, everybody just makes it appear so easy... But It is not.
I've counseled many people with similar struggles, which, when things don't go well, are sometimes almost as frustrating to us healthcare workers than to our patients. I, too, suffer from some personal struggles as well, and firmly believe that counselling may help me understand my own sufferings as well as the other's.
Besides that part of life (the struggles), you might also as well be some kind of genius (your creations give evidence of that!) and, over all things, you create pieces of art which give long lasting moments of joy to all of us who are completely unable to create anything!
I sincerely hope you keep progressing, getting better and happier. It is alright not yo have your life "tied up"; actually, it's just bullshit to think anyone should have It. At this age, or any age.
We just do what we can. And try our best.
Love this blog, thank you! Happy birthday!